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I honestly can say, my life has never been boring. Never been sedentary. Never predictable. Never. This is trues even to this day. The life i led as a child was a bumpy journey to be sure. It was not easy by any stretch of the imagination. I can honestly say looking back...I don't have a memory of a single day that could be defined as childhood bliss. The reality is...it wasn't good. The reality also is...it made me who i am....All that i was, all that i did, all that i experienced,made me the woman I am today.... I am a strong, independent, creative,survivor. 

This was my home for a time when i was in 4Th grade. That is my little sister in front of our *house*. Home never meant to me what it means to many people, all warm and cozy. During my younger years we moved allot. So making friends was never easy...now i can make *friends* with anyone, no matter who they are or what they might have. I understand having nothing. I understand life is not perfect, and it never will be. I understand that while what i lived might have been not the best ...at least i am here to talk about it.

Fitting in was not an option as a kid, I was one feisty little girl. I did not put up with any bullying, came home with a black eye or two defending my dignity or my opinion. ...now fitting in doesn't matter...Seriously who wants to fit in. Who wants to be in a cookie cutter life. Not me! I mean  really, where is the fun of conforming to what every one thinks you should be.  My childhood never allowed me to conform, even if i had wanted to it wasn't an option.  Now I am grateful. Grateful things weren't good.  I don't think i would have learned as much if life were easy...

the lesson.

Be grateful for what you do have.

Comments

[Amy D.]

I was so touched by your openess and honesty. I grew up in foster homes and went from family to family often. I became an R.N. so I could feel good about helping others. Through scrapbooking I have learned so much about myself and gratitude. I will not regret the past or wish to close the door on it, this is who we are. Stong women with so much to offer.

[cheryl mezzetti]

Thank you Marah for sharing your story. It amazed me the day you told it to me. The road you have traveled has molded you into an incredible artist, mother, wife, friend and mentor.
Thanks for sharing this road with me. :)

[Sophia]

Marah, how have I missed your blog? I am truly touched by the things that I've just read back on your blog. Beautiful entries. Your insight to life is amazing. I'll definitely be returning. Thank you for sharing so deeply from your heart.

Sophia

[linda harre]

thanks for sharing your story and pic! just goes to show, we have no idea what others have been through....so we should stop judging!!!!! i believe that adversity makes us strong. i also agree with you, eveything we have ever experienced makes us who we are, and we should be thankful for ALL those experiences......~L.

[Becky Thompson]

You have such a great outlook on life, Marah. I love reading your blog - I come away feeling so positive. Thank you for sharing some of your story.

[Chiara]

what a wonderful entry and something I need to remember is life is what we make of it and it doesn't come with an instruction book.

[Samantha]

Well said!

[Michelle W.]

amazing post. Love the person how your journal have made you become. You're an amazing artist and wonderful woman.

Michelle

[christine]

You are such a kind,dynamic and strong person and a really great mother. The joyful spirit that Maddie has is God's gift to you and gratitude is the key without a doubt. There are so many lessons in all of this life stuff, whether it is parenting a difficult child or having a difficult childhood, it is all building who we are and who we are becoming. If life were really smooth and easy we would all be quite boring people and we would most likely have no reason to find our creative shelters and ways to express. You are right, there is much to be grateful for! xoxo C